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True confession
My AD has gone back to rehab for the 15 th time. Am I glad? Yes.
I am also worn down and tired. I really feel just a bit past relieved. No joy. No renewal of hope. I feel rather dead about her. If she stays in rehab, she stays. If she leaves, she leaves. I do not want to go to the family meetings in rehab. I want to take a walk in the woods, and feel alive. I do not want to be with her.i did go to see her when She was in the ER for a few hours, but that was all. I did drive her back to rehab after that, rather than have her take a cab. I told her not to talk During the twenty minute drive. She remained quiet. We did not speak. Whatever it is she has to say, I do not want to hear it.
I am done listening to her, I am done hoping. When she has been sober for a year I might be able to listen to her.
I can't do these things for her anymore because it is too painful.
After I saw her, I went home and cried. Such a beautiful child, so loving, so creative, so talented. Wasted in a life on the street, addicted to heroin and that very life. It is crushing to see her like this. When I think of my daughter, and the life she has, I want to vomit. It is so wrong, so very wrong.
Posted: 04/12/2015 10:34 PM
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