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Member Since: 04/06/2011
 
Last Login: 04/11/2011

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31 year old female, wife and mom. Secretive addiction. Hate to even call myself and addict, but I am pretty sure I am one.  As a teen I was into whatever I could get my hands on. X, Pills, Weed, Acid...you name it..I did it..orally.  Never shot or snorted anything. Have had several surgeies (appendix, tubal pregnancy, hernia, wisdom teeth) all of which I was put on pain meds, including 2 child births. Was always clean while prego. Never even took Tylenol. Once they were out though..I went from social using (pills) to getting scripts-legally. Its up and down. I get them, take them, run out...withdrawl...and go back to the Dr. I just want someone to understand WHY..cause I dont. I was raised in a good home, parents didnt even drink however..I was always the "people pleaser" in the family, pageant queen..a perfectionist. Authority has never been my thing though...started to revolt around age 15 or 16. I was told to move out at 18..which I did do...drug/alcohol use got worse and started cutting, which I soon realized was dumb..so I stopped that...but after all these years...18 months ago I did it again...til my hubs caught me and I stopped.  I smoke cigerettes and still take Paxil and xanax, which at this point is my ONLY outlet. Just want someone who is in MY situation to talk to for support and tell me Im not insane lol!....Thanks!



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  • Cutting
  • Drugs
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  • Shopping
  • Smoking

Still taking xanax 2mg daily-no sponsor

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