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SOBER COACH
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here we go again
HELLO MY FRIENDS , its been a while , im not. So proud to announce my ist owi in my life , spent 3 weeks in county jail and so on , blew .10 dont seem to get a grip im so dome should know better never experienced this so its onother lesson learned .Cant blame but myself no car now no license eithr tuffer times now but iwiil get up again and try to be stronger riding A bike now in better shape doing some aa hope crap will get better so all of that have family members us addicts try, some come out with success some try and some fail in this case im a dumb ***

Posted: 06/27/2015 7:51 PM

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SOBER COACH
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here we go again

Posted: 06/27/2015 7:32 PM

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This website make me feel dumb.
The caption says it all.

Posted: 06/22/2015 2:36 PM

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Helping my daughter, helping my son
My daughter's baby's hip has problems, so she has to wear a harness to make the hip socket strong. She is 11 weeks old. The day the baby turned 10 weeks old, my daughter fell on steep stairs (attending a baby shower at a doctor's house!) and her finger got caught on the support of the wrought iron hand rail. She spent eight hours in an emergency room, but happily she still has her finger. She also knows what the bone and tendons on her finger look like. Pretty terrible, but she has her mother to help her and her husband out with caring for the child. It may be that the harness will come off the baby in two weeks, the cast off the finger about the same time. Helping her, while not a pleasure ALL the time, is healthy, validating, and necessary. Therefore it is easy, and I am easy in my mind about it. But helping my son? So painfully different. He still stumbles from crisis to crisis -- you can't go through life mentally impaired without consequences. His employer appears to be clearing out the non-performers -- one person fired last Friday. My son has been given what is probably a final warning -- as though the firing of his co-worker was not a enough. If he loses his job, he did it to himself by being late way too often and possibly by screwing up due to being high. I suppose I should be amazed he's lasted as long as he has.

Posted: 06/22/2015 2:35 PM

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LIFECOACH
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New Job
Hi friends, for those of you that know me, I had to take my picture down because I was just hired at a residential adolescent rehab, I am very excited. Since I post personal things, I have to stay anonymous.

Posted: 05/29/2015 11:26 AM

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Another way to think about it
I have learned a lot in the last year, one thing that surprised me is about the disease of addiction. The drug use is not the disease, it is a symptom of the disease. It is a disease about feelings. Just by pausing the drugs doesn't cure the disease. This is why it is important and essential that just stopping needs to be accomanied by something that includes working on the deeper issues. Counseling, 12 steps etc. When my husband would pause his drinking, even then I knew it was just a matter of time before he would drink again. When I see my daughter still after 4 years, going to meetings, talking to her sponsor and sponsoring as well as advocating I don't have that same doomed feeling. They are using the drugs to suppress the feelings and getting physically addicted may just be the horrible consequence. Could it be that is why the people that just paused their addiction in my life were still kind of jerks? Because they didn't have the tools and support to handle real life, that is why it didn't last.

Posted: 05/28/2015 3:39 AM

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Again
My AD got kicked out of the halfway house. Not for using, but for not telling on someone who was using. She is back on the street. Today I saw her and, well, it was the same old addict behavior. I believe she has relapsed I am writing to vent: is it typical for someone to get booted from a halfway house for this reason? My husband talked to the therapist, so we know this was the truth. Also, does anyone else feel this is inappropriate, To put a very sick individual in the nascent stages of recovery back on the street?

Posted: 05/24/2015 6:35 PM

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It's great to be wrong
My son has been staying at his girlfriend's. So I was very surprised to wake up Sunday morning to find him home in his room. After he woke up, he went to his car. I assumed the worst and figured he was getting drugs out of his car and was going to use. He knows not to keep drugs in the house. I was very surprised when he came back in the house with my Mother's Day card and gift. It was the most beautiful handwritten note that I have ever read. It is indeed great to be wrong sometimes!

Posted: 05/11/2015 8:59 PM

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just for today

My daughter Cate is living in a halfway house several hours away. Something feels right about this.  Her words and her behavior match.

She stayed at rehab until she was discharged to the house.  This was a first.

I am afraid to feel hopeful; in the past my hopefulness blinded me to her deceptions.

so for today I am thankful and grateful that she is alive, and although not prospering yet, she is stepping out of the fog an inch at a time.

Posted: 05/10/2015 10:44 PM

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I am bitter and angry,just for today

 I am tired. Tired of worry, tired of not sleeping, tired of workin on ME, tired of cooking tired of cleaning, and tired of trying to change my thinking. Why? Because I did not do this, and I am angry. I am angry at the person who brought dope into the life of my family. I am tired of lying that my AD is at college when she is in prison. WHy do I lie, because I have a small child who needs playmates. I hate being judged, condemed, ridiculed byt "the perfect people" I hate I can not pick up the phone and call my child when I want. I hate that she does not want to change. I hate that another young person in my community died from heroin. I hate when I look into the eyes of an addict wether using or clean, they could be one minute away from death. I hate when I see families together although I am sure some sort of dysfunction is there, they are together. I hate that I love my addicted child because with love comes immense pain at times. I hate the memories. Even the good ones because they make me cry just as bad as the bad ones. I hate that ny child has not hit bottom. I hate that she wants to return to the lifestyle. She says to me she doesnt but everything she does in action, speaks volumes. I HATE DRUG ADDICTION. I hate the loiss, pain, endless fighting for a somewhat normal life, I just wnat to breath again, just exhale. I want to rest. I want to be at peace. I am just angry tonight and tomorrow will be a better day as I always turn this around! Thanx for allowing me to vent :)

Posted: 05/01/2015 7:30 PM

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