This is the place to get it all out! Tell us what's on your mind. What's the worst thing you've done for your addiction? What's the worst thing that's happened to you because of your addiction? How have you been affected because of someone else's addiction? How has your life as an addict affected the ones you love? Reading and writing these confessions help us realize the impact that the addictions have over all of us. When posting your confession, you can choose to remain anonymous or let others see your profile name as to bring about discussions.

Back to Search

27 Thanks

It is Christmas Eve

I remember vividly the Christmas season during my addiction. None of it seem to matter, but there were flashes of kindness and community.  We all heard about a Cdinner put on by some church especially for the homeless. Somebody took me along. We ate home cooked food, served to us by women from the church.  We received a gift bag with socks and ginger bread. We did not look up from our plates .   We held hands around the rtable during the prayer, but that was almost too much for me. Too much closeness;  too much kindness.  I had to leave.  So did most of the addicts.
I realize now what caused my illness:  feeling too much.  Too much shame, too much guilt, too much empathy for others.  I could never turn it off.  Morphine put a warm blanket over my pain.  It took me years to find the reason to shake off that blanket.  Like my father always said:  what does not kil you,makes you stronger.

Merry Christmas and peace on Earth!


Posted: 12/24/2016 9:10 AM

Received 2 Thanks for this Post

Back to Search

Add a Comment

Disclaimer: The information provided on this web site is not intended to be medical advice or addiction counseling; rather, it is provided solely as information of a general nature relating to addictions and people affected by addictions. Please note that your access to, and use of, is subject to additional terms and conditions. Click here for terms and conditions for the use of this web site.
© Copyright - Ask an Addict - All rights reserved - Terms of Use - Privacy Policy