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I'm not an addict, but I have one in my life.  I am learning more and more everyday about dealing with my boyfriends crack addiction.  I fell in love with him 2-1/2 years ago knowing he was recovering from this addiction. 

My first glimpse at his addiction was his relapse 2-years ago.  We had been dating for about 6-months and boom....I saw the dark side of him using crack.  He quickly got back into treatment and was clean for 2-years up until 1-month ago (Nov 2010).  The last month has been a roller coaster of him using for a few days, stopping for a few days and going back out to use.   Always apologizing, always telling me he loves me so much and always telling me he's going to get help.

I have found the strength to disconnect from him....all communication and put myself first through all of this.  Sure I have fears, doubt, questions....but in the end, I have to trust and lookout for myself.  I have realized that I can't be the Angel that saves him....he has to do it himself.