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Hello everyone. I have been off of here for awhile as i chose to take sone time off from the world of addiction lol like that can truely be done! i have been focusing on myslef my hubby and been savoring every moment with my lil one! Somehow the time has flown by and my AD will be getting out of prison in a week. I should feel happy but I do not. I am concerned for her as she has not changed much. She has refused a halfway house in a far from my hime area and her parole officer will be picking her up and be bringing her to a homeless shelter obly 20 min. Away. Truth be told my feelings are suprising me. I am actually worried about her coming around trying to cause havick here again. I can not get a restraining order as she may come out and be okay and she does deserve a chance to be part of the family again. She is not going to be living here and i am not even sure how i feel avout her coming here for a visit. I feel very uncomfortable about it all. I can not talk to her as she can not yet be reasonable. I again feel as though because if addiction my life is turned upside down. I know i should not worry about what has not yet happened but i feel as though i must prepare for what mat be headung my way. Is my life niw going to resort back to uninvited visits police in my yard to have her remived from my propertt? What in Fods name do I do with my lil one who may again see this junk around again. Yes i can tell AD all the boundties and I can follow through with phoning police if need be, but how do I protect my lil one she is obly 6 yrs old and only yell her that her sister is sick. What do I and can I do to not have this around me again? I want to support AD but have to balance things extra carefully because of lil one! i know my AD will nee me just coming out of prison how do I nit shun her but keep things quiet and safe for lil one? Please any help amd advice is appriciated

So, I'm sure something like this has been asked before but I can't seem to find the question. My ex is an addict whose drug of choice is heroin but he also abuses other drugs to keep himself functional (I believe cocaine and Xanax and probably others.) In the beginning of his relapse, he seemed to have moments of being more normal- it seemed like he was sorry at times and he tried to keep me happy by forcing himself to stay home when he clearly had an itch to leave. He also acted like there was something he wanted to talk about but he couldn't get the words out (I had no idea he was an addict). That progressed into his pushing me away, telling me he wasn't ready for a relationship, that I deserved better, that I shouldn't have to deal with him. That he never would have gotten involved with me if he had known he was going to do this again. Then that turned into he never wanted to be with me and only went along with the relationship to please me. Now, on the rare occasions I do talk to him, he usually appears to be very angry/aggressive and delusional. He's blaming me for everything that is wrong in his life. He acts like he wants nothing to do with me, but he's also resentful of my leaving him (we were living together). But he also appears to be reluctant to let me go. He keeps contacting me even though I've asked him not to. I'm having trouble coming to grips with his behavior. I understand that for the most part I probably will never understand it. But is it possible that I'm seeing his level of guilt progress? Is he mean to me because at this point, his relapse has gone on for 2 months, and his self loathing has increased and he's directing it at me? I'm not sure why he would be directing it just at me (that I know of). I don't think he speaks to his family this way. I really thought he cared about me once but it's hard to remember that now. Any thoughts would be appreciated.

Does anyone remember the website for cheap drug test kits?

I have a question regarding track marks My bf was using about 3 months ago, he seems to be clean now but last night I noticed on his forearm - about 5 different spots - the best way that I can explain how they looked is like mosquito bites that had been scratched and have the white like it's peeling. I know that these are track marks but my question is are they fresh track marks? I can feel the skin raised, not sure if that's from scarring or not. I didn't notice any bruising around those spots but farther up on his arm (towards the inside of his elbow) there are dark spots - doesn't really look like bruising - more red. Can someone tell me if these are fresh or if it's healing and normal for someone who is approx 3 months sober from heroin use. I haven't noticed his usual signs, he's been eating good, sleeping good, good attitude, he used to use in the basement bathroom and he would be there for hours but hasn't done that either. Unfortunately, the question always remains in the back of my head but I've been trying to look at the concrete evidence and not my fear of his relapse taking over. I'm hopeful that these are just healing and he picks at them and not fresh but I don't know how to tell. Please

I am a recovered heroin/opiate addict & have been sober for over 5 years now. However what I am dealing with now is harder than anything I've previously dealt with...my sister, 30 yrs old & mother to a 5 year old special needs child who is also my goddaughter, has been an addict since 17. She is on methadone to deal w her opiate problem but she is mainly addicted to crack cocaine. Shes a single mom & we both live at our moms trying to get back on our feet, however I end up caring for her daughter almost 24/7...her daughter desperately needs her mommy but when my sister does take care of her she ends up glued to her phone texting away the whole time or driving around w her for hours doing god knows what. Its gotten to the point where her daughter wants nothing to do w her mommy, cries when her mom holds her or picks her up. She even smacks and kicks her mom to get away & only wants me to hold her, probably b/c I actually pay attention to her & give her affection. My sister will be clean for 3 months & relapse for 3, clean for 3 & so on...when shes using she steals, scams us for money, lies & misses important doctor appointments for her daughter. I could go on but you've all heard it before...this has been going on for 5 years now with her current intensity of using. She needs to STOP!!! She has a special needs handicap daughter & needs to be there for her! Shes gone to rehab, twice, been kicked outta the house many times oonly to come back agreeing to terms of no cell phone and turn over her money which she will do & eventually slowly but surely wins over Moms trust after couple months & is right back to it.The worst of this is that ALL of my family ask what I did to get clean & what the secret is...& I have no clue as to the answer. What can I do???

My son is 20 years old. he has been abusing drugs on and off since he was 14. In December he was put in jail awaiting trial for 2 felony charges in Baldwin county. I of course bailed him out. I live in TN so he has been staying with my parents who live in Baldwin County. He has stolen from my parents 3 times and is abusing the prescribed meds that his psychiatrist put him on. I can't allow him to live there any longer he is killing my parents. Can I send him back to jail?

My daughter just got out of jail (5 days) for domestic violence and breaking her parole. I did not bail her out. She has an alcohol addiction. She has been ordered to go through the diversion program. She is currently staying at my house. I picked her up on Monday, she had court on Tuesday and has been drunk for 2 days...a court violation. I keep telling her she needs to go to an AA meeting - that I would drive her. Also to start looking for a job and an apartment. She has done nothing. I don't know if I should turn her in. I don't think jail is the answer. She needs to be in an in house rehab facility. I have names and numbers of those...she will not call. Any advice you can give me would be helpful. I have thought of contacting the diversion agency; am afraid they will just put her back in jail.