Creative Corner

I borrowed this from a creative, talented special friend of mine.  It is thoroughly wonderful, yet sad too. 

I met a girl in junior high, her name will be withheld

Kind of quiet, kind of shy, but soon started to rebel.

She met this boy, let's call him Adam, who introduced her to a

new scene. 

Adam made her a new life with a new everyday routine.

She started smoking cigarettes which soon moved on to pot.

She was happy, having so much fun, or at least she thought.

She liked the feeling, she liked the friends.

she was never home and did not want it to end.

She hung out with these people, they were her family

She then got into other drugs like acid and ecstacy. 

Always tired, never ate, threw up at school a lot

Scars on her arms, paranoid, always complained she was too hot

Anxious all the time, irritable, a bit depressed

Was she in too deep? Was she obsessed?

Then one day I noticed what was causing all this change

I walked by her and her friends and noticed something strange

She was now addicted, her parents had no clue

I was worried was she okay?  Now what do I do?

I tried to help, she just got mad, and told me to just screw off

My last words to her were "be careful" as she started to cough

A year later to my sadness I caught word of her death

I wish someone tried to help her to stop doing crystal meth.

I was on my profile page earlier and I looked at the date that I joined this site and realized that in 5 days, I will celebrate my one year anniversary of being a member of AAA.  I would like to thanks each and every one of you who have helped me.  You, my friends, have never judged me, (chronic relapser),  nor did you ever criticize me when I screwed up a little.  I have some very special friends on here now and even though we live in different places,  you all feel like an awesome family to me.  I have special friends on here whom I have so much respect for.  I really had no idea that people cared about my well being.  My Father and Mother have given up on me now that I have a son.  They seem to only worry about his well-being (which they have every  right to do ) and this sometimes makes me sad.  But back to the anniversary.  I just want you guys to know that my anniversary will mean something very special to me.  I keep messing up but I do keep trying.  Much love, jen2010

To the edges of death and back
Where life has led me to
Good choices, bad choices
Owning the past to protect the future

Looking back to say 'What if" or "If only"
Gets me nowhere fast.
For I have only today and maybe tomorrow.
What good are regrets?

Don't judge me by mistakes.
Don't judge me by my past.
For when I look at me I see today.
For when I look I see the future.

I don't need you to tell me I fucked up.
I don't need you to remind me.
Remember, I lived it,
And don't forget to look in the mirror.

Right now there are so many thoughts running through my mind. Im having major anxiety attacks and doubt has made its way in. I only have enough pills left for tomorrow. This detox is gonna kick my a$$. Im scared and dont know what to do. My emotions are going crazy and im so depressed I can feel my heart hurting literally. Why did i let myself fall this far. I dont know if I can handle this. I feel like im trapped and about to go insane!

Walking down the road

This message that im  sending out like a telegraph to yur soul

If i cant bridge the distance , Honey stop

This hearthache overload .

 You dont know how desperate ive become and it looks

Like I, losing this fight

will always love for ever

Aldino

Dearest my special Woman

Every time I think of you I always catch my Breath

You fill my life with laughter fill my heart with gladness

And at the end of the day take away my sadness.

Ease my troubles is what you do. I’m still standing

Here, and you’re miles away. I spend my time just

Thinking about you, and there’s a storm that’s

Raging through my frozen heart today

I’ll spend my life looking for immortality

Just to Love you

 Forever you’re Man

I came across this on Positive Thoughts today~~~~

Letting Go:

To "let go" does not mean to stop caring,

it means I can’t do it for someone else.

To "let go" is not to cut myself off,

it’s the realization I can’t control another.

To "let go" is not to enable, but to allow

learning from natural consequences.

To "let go" is to admit powerlessness,

which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To "let go" is not to try to change or blame another,

it is to make the most of myself.

To "let go" is not to care for, but to care about.

To "let go" is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To "let go" is not to judge, but to allow another to be a

human being.

To "let go" is not to be in the middle arranging all the

outcomes,

but to allow others to affect their own destinies.

To "let go" is not to be protective, it is to permit another

to face reality.

To "let go" is not to deny, but to accept.

To "let go" is not to nag, scold or argue, but instead

to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To "let go" is not to adjust everything to my desires,

but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.

To "let go" is not to regret the past, but to grow and live

for the future.

To "let go" is to fear less and love more.